Missing You

Heck yeah, it's only been what, 6 hours since you left.

GODDAMMIT I AM SUCH A 'TARD.

(I hope you never read this post.)

I've always said that you're my idol and c'mon, I literally worship the ground you walk on. I'm like this leech who just sticks onto you and sucks you dry of interesting information; but like a leech in comparison to a human, you never run out of fabulous things and stories and facts to tell me, just like how a person won't die of blood loss due to blood-sucking leeches. (If you've got like, hundreds of them, that's a different story.)

Sure, you're short and mini-sized and your upper and lower body is disproportionate, but heck you hit a ball harder, whack a ball faster, run a race quicker, endure sports longer, jump a jump higher and throw a ball further than anybody I know. And yet you never really let me lose sight of you.

You're nerdy and as un-pop as one can be, but yet you set trends, you do stuff your own way, you think your own thoughts, you have your own principles, you stand your own ground, you fight your own battles. But yet, at the end of the day, you'll have the time to teach me things and set me straight; wake me up so I won't be late; show me things I never knew I never knew.

You're smart, retarded, funny, insane, nonsensical, a genius...

But most of all, you're an awesome brother.

I doubt the world has ended, or we'll meet each other only in our next lives; since the introduction of the internet, it seems that anything is possible.

But still, the internet is only just a bunch of cables running under the sea. And the sea is a wide, wide place. The internet can't substitute the distance.

I'm afraid that when we meet again we'll be awkward and forced, trying to bring back previous memories that are shared, yet so little surface. To crack a joke a expect a laugh, only to be met with a dazed smile, now that's a dream gone bad.

Still, as wishful as I am, I'm relieved, I'm happy, I'm overjoyed, I'm jubilant; at the end, you've got your life, and I've got mine.

Your life just started. Make good use of it, and most of all, be happy.